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So I didn't get the assistant administrator position. Boo!

On the other hand, I am glad all this waiting and wondering is over, and I did get a position off nights where I can work four ten hour days and am still in a supervisory position over nights, as well as being an evening team lead (I call the shots on the floor on evenings when I'm there). It's not as good as assistant admin, but it's a big step up from nights and a schedule that puts me out of synch with everyone else, so overall I am happy with the change. It was good to find out how many people really supported me and had trust and faith in me, so I feel this was a good experience for that alone.


In other news:

I AM QUITTING TEH INTARWEB FOREVAR HAR HAR!

Well, no, not actually, but my livejournal is kind of going on hiatus. With my schedule I just haven't had the time I would like to update and read other people's stuff and comment. I feel guilty when I'm not commenting and then I avoid LJ because I feel guilty, and ... bleh. Trust me, I know the folks that read this aren't getting all offended that I'm not the most prolific writer, but I gots my own issues with that sort of thing, so I decided just to take a break from LJ. Important stuff tends to get pointed out to me by my loved ones, and I still can be reached through e-mail or of course AIM (gwynbones), and I'll probably pop up now and then.

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Well, I am off to California in about an hour or so, for the Big Sur trip to see Sarah's family. We have everything we need, though I'm sure we'll get there and have forgotten something (I always do). But it should be an awesome time, and uber relaxing, though I'll be away from the computer. Still, man, I need a break! The only sad thing is that the boys can't come, as they are going to Anthrocon next week, and can't do two trips in two weeks. We will be back late night Friday, though, well rested and hopefully not sunburned!





I also have this Snupin icon, and I have no idea where I got it from. I need to figure out who did it so I can credit them. But until then, it makes me happy!

Man, I never write in this thing anymore. Part of it is due to an increasingly smaller time online at work, where I do a lot of my idle stuff, and an increasingly bigger time doing other stuff, but I'm losing track of people, and that's sad. One of my online friends is getting married this weekend, and I have been half out of the loop because I just haven't been around to hear this sort of thing. Egads! But browsing through stuff now, it looks like everyone is doing well, and said friend (sternbunny) has gorgeous hair for the wedding and everything! (This is the gal who sends enough pumpkin bread for the whole household every Christmas!)

Just a quick word about Beth: she is one of those people that you feel grateful just to have known in your life. Sweet, generous, funny, smart, and creative, it's hard to find flaws with the woman, unless you count her being overly nice. On top of that, it's pretty clearly all genuine, and while that can make a woman powerful jealous, it gets forgotten in the great amusement and joy in hanging around with this chick. I only wish she lived closer. If there's anyone I know who deserves to find true love and happiness more, I can't think of them, and I happen to know a load of really great people, so that's saying a lot.

Beth, you rock. Have an absolutely amazing wedding day, because I know you'll be the most gorgeous thing in the room, lady. And probably the happiest, too, next to Eric. ^_~ *big, big hugs*

( The results should surprise nobody. I'm so predictable on these things. And I always get INFJ, it is so the mental health professional's personality type, man. )

Since I haven't yet, I wanted to thank everyone who commented on my last post about my new hopes for promotion. It's just awfully nice to come back to the computer and hear all the support. *sniffle* You guys are the greatest.

Further updates on that front: just about everyone I've talked to here at Faulkner Place is behind me, which is just so surprising and awesome. The administrator who's leaving had her good-bye party last week, and at it she told me she had heard about my interest and thought I would be great for the position, which means I can totally use her as a reference. I think I can do this! But all of this hinges on one man: the guy who oversees all the secure residential treatment programs, who I have met maybe twice. He seems like a nice guy, but he doesn't know me, and I know he will be interviewing other people for the position I hope my current boss gets into, and the one I hope she vacates so I can apply for. I'm not sure what impresses him, but I feel like I've got the rest of Faulkner Place behind me, so I have a good shot. I'll be brushing up my resume, and waiting to hear what happens next.

And there was indeed a con, Norwescon, this weekend, but sadly I totally forgot my camera in the hotel room, so I have no pictures, bah! There were some amazing costumes, a lot of time spent looking for "the bee guy" (Andy), and a little time having my ego boosted. Sarah was much admired and pet and cooed at (she did the awesome unicorn costume, and looked crazy good), basically, we found a new roleplay friend ( laughtergoddess ) through a pet auction, and slept in one of the cushiest hotel rooms I have ever seen. It rocked!

So I mentioned that I was applying for the evening shift administrator position, if it opens up (I still don't know if it will or not, yet). The rest of the noc shift folks have been uber supportive, and seem o think I am a shoo in, which is sweet, but two of them, admittedly, are new folks and don't really know the lay of the land here. However,when i mentioned it today to Scott, who is my old boss, and still one of the bigger guns around here, he was very encouraging. "You'd be my boss then. Cool!" he seemed to think I definitely have a good shot.

All of a sudden this has gone from good idea to scary real possibility. Eek! Being an administrator would mean a lot of work, and probably over 40 hour weeks. I would be helping with the hiring and firing of people, deciding who comes in, going to the state hospitals to interview potential residents, setting policy, handling disputes, overseeing clients treatment plans, generating new forms and paperwork, dealing with the state, getting us ready for audits, etc, etc. Egads!

It's a lot of work and responisbility, and such a big leap from where I am now, it scared the bejeesus out of me. If I did get it, what if I can't do the job? It's not like I could just drop right back into my cozy noc shift lead position. It's definitely safer to stay where I am ...

But. But, but, but. This is the same way I felt before I became program manager at Cuenca. Like there was no way I could possibly do the job, I was a kid fer chrissakes! I am thirty now, as I like to complain to anyone within earshot. Plenty old enough to have a family of my own with kids and a house. Plenty old enough to do this job, I think. I think I have the skills and the talent, I just need some training and a push. I think I can do this, I just need to tell myself that. A lot. *laugh* And stop freaking out over something that may or may not happen!

So today I found out the administrator here at Faulkner gave her two weeks notice, which explains why she hasn't been answering any of my e-mails. Which means we're going to get a new administrator, which always shakes things up: whoever heads this place, their philosophy shapes how we do our job here. Hopefully the evening administrator will get the job: she's this awesome, hard-working woman who truly cares about the clients AND can do her job. She's often here late so she can get everything she needs to done, and she doesn't hide much: she's always been straight with us about hiring people, etc. If she gets it, I will be seriously stoked, I think she'll be great for the facility.

If she does, though, then that leaves her position open. I don't know if they'll ask people here to apply, or other peopel in the facility, and whether people who apply need to be a QMHP (Master's degree as opposed to a QMHA, which I am, which means Bachelor's degree), but if they do open apps, I think I will apply. It will mean moving into admin again, which I said I wanted to avoid, but working under Lark would be okay, I think. It would also move me to evening hours so I could actually see people sometimes, and not just weekends. And it would be nice to have some say in how our facility is run. Lots more work, but I'm willing to do it. Of course, this is predicated on a lot of big ifs. IF they don't just offer it to Nhu, our evening QMHP. IF they want people in our facility. IF it doesn't have to be a QMHP. And biggest of all, IF they'd accept someone like me - pierced, tattooed, dyed, not good at the political game at all, and young-looking.

But I figure it's worth a shot. Nothing ventured, nothing gained, right?

Well, life has been busy of late. Work has been busier, which is why I don't update this thing much anymore. I used to do it at slow spots, but I rarely have slow spots anymore. I'm only doing it now because I have a client who has been standing here for a nearly an hour singing and making lewd jokes (and also somewhat nonsensical ones), then saying, "You know what I mean?" over and over and over. I can type on this thing while that's going on, but auditing charts is right out, man.

Everyone is up tonight, it's crazy. And I'm hungry, because I ate at, like 2:30pm and stupidly had nothing else before going to work. And that is the extent of my complaints.

Sarah's birthday week is turning out to be a crazy one, but I did manage to score tickets to Varekai for her! I really wanted her to be able to go, the Cirque is just awesome and everyone should experience it, man. We're also going to go dancing this Sunday, so I am super happy about that. We haven't been dancing in forever, and while I am a completely terrible dancer, I love to do it. I'll totally dance by myself, even if people are in the bathroom. I am kind of a spaz.

You know, now that I'm ehre, I don't even know what to say. o.o My life seems so banal sometimes, to an outside observer, though I am very happy in it. I am discovering the joys of non-fan roleplay once more, and finding it seems like I don't have enough hours in the day to play all I want to. Glut of cool stuff. And! I have the brightest yellow pair of pants now, ever (and the hugest) and shortly to get soem crazy contact lenses! So life is good, really.

Though if I have to hear, "Only seventeee-ee-eeen," one more time I'm going to go batty.

For those very few who wouldn't have seen it through Matt's or Dan's journals:

My babe made Kittenbreak! He is teh intarweb pseudo-celebrity! XD

I wish I still had all my pics now so I could use the Buca icon. I need to get around to buying those back, man.

I HAVE FINISHED THE SKETCHES!

I will ask Matt to scan them tomorrow or tomorrow night, and then I will put them up! Sorry it took so long for just six, youse guys.

I am about half done with my sketches for people, but I am going to scan them all at once. But I am doing them! Thank you for your patience.

In the meantime, check out: punk badger! Ee, thank you, Rachel! It is so cool! AND Iggy Snape sphynx love! Does my baby know me, or what? Now I have to make icons! Except I only have five now because I let my stupid livejournal account expire.

1. Comment here and I'll pick two (or possibly three) of your LJ interests and draw a picture combining them.
2. I picky. Me. Not you. So there.
3. If you wanna, you can put this in your journal along with the pictures people drew for you.

I may do mouse drawings, which is the way it is supposed to be done, but I suck ass at drawing with the mouse. And I will be slow. But I will do it!

( Star Trek Quiz )

Have you seen the new kitty? His name is Kapali, and he's over on Sarah's journal. He and Buca are getting along pretty well after only three days, they love the chase you, chase me game. Crazy, crazy cute.

Jesus, I haven't been near this thing in forever. January has pretty much been the month from hell (it sounds like on a lot of people's fronts), so I'm afriad I haven't caught up with most of my flist at all, which always makes me feel uneasy and guilty. But here's hoping that February is, at the very least, calmer.

Thanks for everyone who put in a prayer or good thought for my mom. She's going through a divorce right now (which precipitated her going into the hospital), and really needed all the support. She was very touched when she heard you folks out there were sending good vibes her way. The divorce is still rough, and a lot of other bad stuff has happened (she got mugged, fer Chrissakes!), but she's out of the hospital now, and optimistic. It's tough now for her, but I think in the long-run this is going to help her get healthier mentally (she's been ill for the past few years). Luckily she is staying with my brother, as I've only bee able to go up there in person once this month, to be with her in court (which Sarah came along with).

I intended to do a long con report, from FC, because it was so insane, but I think I will point you to ilthuain's entry (ignore the comments, some are awesome, but there is a whole big flame war in there), and twilightspeaks's own entry, which summed it up better than I ever could. I would like to include a list of things that did NOT suck, however, because there were some significant ones.

-rackstraw, who was a guy that, up until then, I thought of as the guy with the weird silhouette icon that was always commenting on Sarah's posts. I had met him briefly a few years back, but didn't really know the guy. Turns out he's a doll, and much-appreciated ear who popped up throughout the con. At the end of it, he gave Sarah and I terribly cute puppy puppets that we played with on the way back. I have the beagle, her name is Daisy. ^.^ Al totally rocks.
-wagondog, the Klingon everyone wants to party with, had one of the best parties at the con Friday night. This is a man who is also about the sweetest guy you'll meet, and who kindly gave us two stuffed dragon. Yes, the theme is: good=stuffed animal. But he was so fun and easy-going and cool to hang out with, I really regret not getting out Saturday night to his party (we were sort of laid low by the car woes), if only to say hello. Next year, so, so there. Also, great drinks, with just the right amount of buzz, and not so much to get me hammered. Who is moving to the area, soon! I mean, wagondog, not the booze. XD
-an 18-year-old boy named John who was at his very first furry con. He was so cute! Man, I remember that age.
-paka, who we got to see far too briefly, and did an awesome ink drawing in our sketchbook (RHINO!)
-rtdn, who was his usual laid-back self, with the hoppy girlfriend, and helped us while away some time waiting for the said car woes to be diagnosed some more
-elynne, who we see far too rarely, and who is a hoot and a half, she must come to Norwescon! You notice my entries are getting shorter, this is not because these people are less important, but because I am getting scatter-brained. Anyway, Erin rocks, and it was great to shoot the breeze with her
-kurtmrufa, who is seriously the tallest, baldest, coolest guy in the room. It is unfair. He likes boxing! YAY!
-my hothothot girlfriend in snake-skin catsuit. Oh. My. God. AHHHH! <33333333 Sometimes I am jealous of Sarah, because she tends to get way more compliments and looks at cons (jeez, who wouldn't look at her? She's gorgeous AND dramatically costumed, usually), but sometimes I am just smug as anything knowing she's there with me. This was totally one of those times.
-Matt. He stayed. <3333333 I felt like bawling that night, and he stayed for my car.
-Andy. He schemed and stayed calm. Rock, baby, a big manly rock.
-Dan. I bet you didn't think I would mention you, huh? We love Dan. Dan deserves love, because when all's said and done, he's a good guy who keeps it together when things are stressful and helps.
-Mike. Is a drunk. XD Also, a sweety.
-the squillion people I did not know well, but who knew Matt, and Andy, and Dan and who offered help at every turn
-the ska band FTB
-my little black dress I never got to wear, but I still looked hot in
-super-glue
-wtf, WONDER WOK!?
-some guy named Jeff who made a 30-year old gal feel like she still had it, damn it

Okay, there are more things, but man, I am not able to think of them right now.

LOVE!

No spell check!

Okay, so ...

I clicked on a random link on greatestjournal, which took me to a picture of Trent Reznor kissing some random chick, posted on somebody's journal.

And since then, I cannot get the thought out of my head that I really want to see Trent Reznor making out with somebody. Anybody. Male, female, whatever. Like, a lot.


Heeheehee.